Overcome with Love, Feeling love in every pore, Living only for love
And seeing myself consumed and caught in a thousand spiders threads.

Oh, there goes the feeling again... Feeling that feeling again.

I feel foolish and happy as soon as I think of you.
My mind has been the most discontented and restless one that ever was put into a body too small for it.
The world seems so obscure to me but your presence makes it clear.

I have a picture of you in my room.
I never pass by it without stopping to look at it.
Who have you smiles with?
All this may seem savage in me.
Ther is a frightful conflict, this couldn't be happening...
But then you have devoured everything ...
You leave me helpless.

This monomania terrifies me.

Love and insanity...

"There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I would not expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some love that do not go away and maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little bit of insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever"

- Ally McBeal

THOUGHTS OF YOU...

This is a poem I made a long time ago... At that time, I was trying to recover from a very painful separation from my boyfriend. Oh, I still remember how I felt that time. I was truly hurting. But I am completely.. totally... entirely over him now.

“thoughts of you”

I wake filled with thoughts of you
My heart is full of many things to say to you
I love you, I love you. my baby;
I can not reiterate it too often;
I can never express it as much as I feel it.
I cannot keep myself from writing any longer to you,
although I have not had any answer to either of my messages
I can assure you…
you have not been out of my thoughts hardly for one minute

I do not expect you to love me,
I am not worthy of your love.
I may appear to you imprudent, vicious;
my opinions detestable, my theory depraved;
but one thing, at least, time shall show you:
that I love gently and with affection,
that I am incapable of anything
approaching to the feeling of revenge or malice;

As for my heart,
there you will always be - very much so.
But let me have this for you,
containing nothing but my love
And its with a very heavy heart I part from you.
No more kisses and tender caresses for ever so long –
I want to bury myself in you, hold you tight in my arms,
make you feel the intense love of mine.

You are my very life,
and our separation gives such endless heartache…
I love you. That is all I know.
But all I know, too, is that I am writing into space:
the kind of dreadful, unknown space I am just going to enter.

I look back to the early days of our acquaintance and friendship
as to the days of love and innocence
the picture of my heart it would be
what I hope you would still love
The early possession you obtained there,
and the absolute power you have obtained over it,
leaves not the smallest space unoccupied.

I picture you in all sorts of ways, as I have seen you since.
I can never praise you enough for yourself
or for your love of me,
which I don’t really deserve.

Written by the hand of hers
who would willingly remain yours.
- nery -

So true....

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not... excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."
-St. Augustine

Remembering....

I remember when i first met this guy... no matter how much i control myself and although i have gathered all my determination to avoid being magnetized by his charms.. i simply cant resist being absorb by his presence...only hard hearted hannah could resist him.. he looks so calm..so cool and steady.. and very intellectual.. he knocked me right off my feet the first time...

only to find out later on that im up to a real danger... ..

that his only bluffing with his cool surface..

that what's inside is a red hot volcano ...

that he's just bidding his time for that plan he is cooking on his brain!

Oh i could swear he was so casual and yet oh so playful...(let me stress.. he's oh so playful!")

He has this some kind of a hypnotic persuasion.. something that i thought was supernatural ...believe me, i even felt that he has black magic!!! But then later on i am surprised and amazed to realize that his smile..his eyes..his words..everything about him is logical, pure and real...

Poor me..!! I just woke up one day and realized that i am enmeshed in his "charms' ... Sometimes, i thought i should have escaped as soon as i saw him.. while i have the option to do so.. and look at me now.. im trapped.., it aint easy to break away from him.. and believe me.. you wouldnt want to.. not when he begins to...ehermmm!

Its never easy to just ignore this person.. atleast for me.. i mean no matter how cranky he is in the morning.. to the point that i would like to poison his coffee.. (hahahah..kidding) no matter how he frustrates me sometimes.. when he pulls up his "it wasnt me, im innocent!" face.. and when he flashes his smile at me ..something happens inside me.. and the battle will be lost.. i am back to square one...

Collecting your wits is necessary to get along with him and getting mad is just a shameful waste of adrenalin.. and until now i dont understand why even if he acts like King Henry VIII at times, i just cant manage to stay mad at him.. (or did i ever get mad at him..? nah!) Besides, you will not be able to top his unmatched reasoning powers unless you graduated from Harvard Law school...you might as well just give up!

He's the kind of person you would want to smack and kiss at the same time.. .. he has the most affectionate .. the most funniest wit that will make you die with laughter.. and above all, he has the most sympathetic heart in this whole wide world .... (his good looks is just a bonus!)

He is simply irresistble and truly unforgettable.. and i love him forever!!!

My disastrous desk... and a typical work day.. chaotic!

My name is Nery...

Everyone is most probably fed up with this so called “25 random things about me” but I’m still gonna write them anyway. It took me ages to come up with things that are at least vaguely interesting about me. Some few things that would make me seem like a fairly rounded person rather than completely nuts.

1. My real name is Nerissa although I never got used to being called this way. My friends in Manila call me Nery, Ners, Nersky or sometimes Riza. Only close friends and family know my secret name: Isa. (English translation: one) ~ not a secret anymore I guess ~
2. I joined and won in a declamation contests several times in elementary school.
3. I was fat in high school. Yaikks!
4. I collect paper bags. I have so many of them.
5. I love perfumes. I mean expensive perfumes. I don’t use them everyday but I feel good whenever I see my perfumes lined up in my bathroom.
6. I place so much importance on men’s oral hygiene.
7. I don't understand what people see in the Godfather trilogy. But I like it.. I watched it many times. Haha!
8. I like doing things in the last minute.. Gives me Adrenalin rush.
9. One of my obscure ambitions is to be a ramp model. I want to have incredibly long legs, a hair that never goes wrong and a wardrobe full of Prada,
10. I have a long standing crush on Keanu Reeves.
11. I have always wanted to learn French. Oh! That sexy French accent!
12. I want to be an author and I still have an ambition to write a best-selling novel now. I have some stories in mind; however, I never get around to writing them.
13. I am not sure about my Blood type until now.
14. I love to travel.
15. I used to clean our school cafeteria in elementary school. I still don’t understand why I used to like doing that for FREE.
16. I like Sophie Kinsella’s novels, particulary the Shopaholic series. I want to be Becky Bloomwood and I want to marry Brandon.
17. I’m terrified of Freddie Kruger’s movies. His films literally give me nightmares.
18. I have a morbid fear of snakes or any creature that crawls.
19. I want to learn the piano and I want to perform in front of all the people that are dear to me.
20. I love cats. Strange enough, I bought a dog.
21. I like easy listening and ballads.
22. I have a terrible handwriting. I got it from my mom. ^^
23. I hate messy and disorganized places, it makes me physically ill and yet I am not very good at organizing things. I need help.
24. I want to have a huge farm!
25. I’m a hopeless romantic.

“I have way more than 25 random things and most of them are extremely interesting and juicy. My close friends know some of them and the joy of our growing friendships is discovering what those random things are in each other — -"